Saturday Speculation: Is He To Be Trusted?

I have my moments, that's for sure. 

The other day, I was talking to my mother...bless her saintly heart for always being available to listen to me, even when it's hard for her to hear.  I was complaining about God seemingly just not answering prayers.  I told her I'd been praying for so long about some things and everything was the same.   I said a lot...I was having a few bad days, and I just let it all tumble out.   About the time I was hanging up with Mom, Ole Boy walked in and suggested that I move the car so we could wash it. 

As I was backing the car out, a song I had not heard was on the radio.   I didn't have time to hear it all, so I jotted down what I did hear so that I could "YouTube" it later. 

The part that was playing when I turned on my car:

When You don’t move the mountains 

I’m needing You to move
When You don’t part the waters
I wish I could walk through

When You don’t give the answers

As I cry out to You

I will trust

I will trust

I will trust in You

It touched my heart in such a way that I know God was telling me He understood how I felt and reminded me to trust Him.

I was also reminded of another moment some time ago when God was patient with me:  While I go about my normal daily routine, I talk to God or think about God-things.  One day, in between talking and thinking, the thought popped unbidden to my mind, “It’s hard to trust God when he really does let bad things happen to us.”

Yeah, I've really had that thought.

I am so thankful that He is longsuffering.

Immediately following the thought (and after the gasp that I actually thought that “out loud” in my head) Job’s words came to my mind:

Though He slay me, yet will I trust Him.

Even so, I will defend my own ways before Him.

(Job 13:15)

God reminded me that trusting Him involves knowing that rather I live or I die, or what hardships come my way, He is to be trusted. I accept that, and I will strive to walk worthy of my calling, so that "defending my own ways before Him" may not be such a daunting thought.   

All this patience and longsuffering while dealing with me as I question His goodness and faithfulness comes from the Man who died a horrific death on the cross for my sins, when He, Himself, committed not one sin, yet was tempted in all sin and remained sinless.  Just put a chocolate bunny in my face, and I'll give in.   

Lord Jesus, forgive me.   You are worthy, O Lord, You are worthy, faithful, wonderful, merciful, kind, and are definitely to be trusted.